Oh...if you could just touch this sweetness...

It's the computer's fault

The boys watching their baby sister.


Love these!

Sweet baby girl.

hat from Aunt Joy

My lack of blogging and lack of pictures is due to the slowness of our computer. It's definitely on it's last leg. It is so so so slow. Hopefully the pictures I upload tonight actually upload.

Marley is growing so quickly. She is still the center of attention around our house. First thing when the boys wake up they ask "Where's Marley?" and when they go to bed it's "I love you baby Marley". They have been so so sweet with her. They are still 2 & 3 so gentleness is a hard concept. Marley seems to be a pretty easy going baby. She sleeps a lot (day and night) and eats great. She fusses when she needs to eat, sleep or have her diaper changed. I love holding that sweet girl. I've forgotten how wonderful and relaxing it is to cuddle and infant. Everything in the world seems right.

Nate's parents and my mom helped me tremendously last week. Nate decided to take M/W/F off to help me this week. I'm feeling good, but still on pain meds.

Princess Marley

Marley Grace Livers

God has blessed us with a beautiful, healthy baby girl born yesterday morning at 8:51 and weighing in at 6lbs 14oz. We're busy with all the proud brothers, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and friends who are here to meet her, so we'll update with pictures soon. Thanks for all your prayers!

Check, check and check

Things checked off the list:

• Pack bag for hospital
• Make house decent for guests
• wrap birthday gifts for boys from Marley
• let boys pick out birthday gift for Marley and wrap those
• confirm with Shannon about making cupcakes
• charge and pack camcorder, camera and phones
• pediure
• pack diaper bag including plenty of bows and pink things
• load carseat in Nate's car
• finish laundry
• finish all thank yous
• pack baby book with pages tagged for footprints and guest sign in
• take a few maternity clothes to resale shop
• put some maternity clothes away for Katie and Candace
• go give blood and urine sample for pregnancy study and make $50
• oh, yeah, and rest!!

I feel like the last few days have been a whirlwind. You have 9 months and I'm a planner, but there have still been things that needed to be done this last week. That's life...things always needing to be done. Not on the list, but what I have definitely done and enjoyed this week, is snuggling with my 2 boys. It's been hard to not get emotional as I hug them, espeically my "baby" Owen. His life is about to change so much. I'm so glad love continues to multiply and not divide when you have a baby. I just want to cherish this time and it seems like it's gone too fast of only having my boys. Tomorrow will be special for them and I can't wait to see them meet this "baby Marley" who they've talked so much about. I'll try to get it on video.

So my thoughts on having another baby: I'm so grateful that God has given me so much peace and grace this whole pregnancy. I honestly haven't lived with fear or worry and that is only because of His presence in my life. I would be lying though if I said I wasn't anxious about tomorrow. Everything has been perfect, but my history has me replaying a worst case scenario out in mind mind. My heart is still trying to protect itself. I'm scared, a little bit about a 4th c-section and a lot about Marley not being okay. I know not to go there, but I am so so ready to hold that screaming girl in my arms (so so ready doesn't really begin to describe it).

I will be taking a sleeping pill tonight. That was one of the worst things about Owen's birthday---I only slept maybe 10 minutes the night before. We will go in at 7am. I'm guessing she'll be here between 10-noon. I'm now the 1st c-section of the day. Nate will send out a text and email and probably update Facebook as soon as he gets a chance (iPhones make all that stuff just too easy)!! We will take our time with her and I'll nurse before the boys get to come up.

So...next time you hear from me...I'll be a mom again. What a wild journey God has us on.

Feed, Wake, Sleep: repeat

This isn't the schedule for the baby...this is my schedule for ME!! I am so tired lately. I think about sleeping, I want to sleep, during the day I can sleep... and then night comes! I struggle to sleep at night even when I'm exhausted. It's just weird. Blame it on heartburn, or restless leg, or nesting, or anticipation---whatever it is it's annoying!! This momma is tired and cranky!

On a happier note: only 9 more days till we meet this precious baby girl. I am so excited. I can't believe she's almost here. The other day the doorbell rang. Shepherd got a huge grin on his face and said "Baby Marley's here?" Uhhhh...guess I've done a bad job of explaining how baby Marley will arrive! Don't think she'll just appear at our door. Sorry, Shep. The boys are so excited. They are going to be great big brothers.

I've been nesting with the fun stuff and lazy on the not fun stuff. aka the bathrooms are really dirty but all the baby girl clothes are clean and organized!!